Walkabout (cont,)
Leaving me home just before the end of the year was significant. This had to start before the year ended and that was happening tonight. Me wanted to be seeing what kinda fortune was waitin for the likes of me.
The realization that Me was getting more concerned with me life was something new. Did me life suddenly get more precious over the years or did the idea that me was, day by day and year after passing year, getting closer to finding out the answer that all has asked themselves at one point or another.
(We not be talkin about who killed JFK or if Elvis is really alive and chillin' with Jim Morrison)
Lunch was time wasted smoking cigarettes along the service road to the expressway. Me has, in the past, found that one can often get a ride from people lookin for a little conversational company on their way to the next town. That didn't happen for quite some time and Me was getting cold due to all the inactivity of standin in one place waiting for things to go me way.
That wasn’t the point of this excursion. Me was supposed to be movin and letting the flow of life return to me stagnant mind.
Me finally did get a ride, but it were nondescript and the conversation was pretty much about how hitchin was dangerous. Me is thinkin that me lift just wanted to hear horror stories and I didn't have any. Me was hoping for something funny. I guess we was both disappointed.
Me was thankful for the lift and for the end of it. Me was back on me feet and alone with me thoughts and feelin like Me was really on me way.
Walkin along a strange road with only moonlight to guide you can either give you a sense of quietude or paranoia Me felt both. Evey sound and shadow made me feel jumpy and it were just fer that reason Me knew me was doin the right thing here. Me wasn't certain what time it was nor how much longer me had untill the apple dropped and eventhough Me was lookin to get away from things, there were still some very important folks who Me wanted to say hello to at the end/start of the year. Me found that iffin you start countin footfalls you can quickly tune out a lot of stuff, but for some damned reason Me mind kept coming back to an old childhood song:
Me went to the animal fair.
The birds and the bees were there.
The big baboon, by the light of the moon, was combing his golden hair.
The monkey he got drunk, and sat on the elepants trunk.
The elephant sneezed and fell to his knees
and that was the end of the monk, the monk, the monk, the monk....
Over and over ad nauseum.
Me ain't sure how long it took me to happen upon dwellings, but me was fortunate that it be the eve of a new year and people were celebrating....
Memories is what you get from embracing life, regrets are born from running away from it
5 comments:
Where are you goin with this, Scary?
This is deeper and longer than your older posts. I'm really digging the tag lines though.
Memories & regrets.
Sometimes I regret some of the things I've embraced.
SM, it sounds to me as though you found yourself standing at a crossroads -- one of those speed bumps Life sometimes tosses at us to see how we'll handle it. I hope that you got the epiphany you went in search of and are feeling less troubled than when you set out. I, too, regret some of the things I've embraced. And yet, even those things have contributed to making me who I am.
I love your last line: Memories is what you get from embracing life, regrets are born from running away from it.
Sometimes, one's first inclination is to run from that which is troublesome or dangerous. Sometimes, it's best to meet it head-on, beat the crap out of it, and vanquish it.:)
SC- you are indeed a different sort of creature...
I'm thinking- what would I say to my sister, or brother, or friend who wandered out- hitch hiked- and walked down a moon-lit road far from home when the New Year arrived?
I think I would have said/asked..."I love you. What if something had happened to you?
Please don't do that again- not alone anyway!"
I'm glad you were safe...and since you are a scary monster- you were probably safe all along- but still- be careful :)
NYD ~ Thank you cuz. Me will get back to lighter things as soon as Me has finished with this. There's a messege for you in there somewhere..
(Serendipidous Journalist)
SJ~ Me not certain if me found anything me didn't knoe already.
But Me like what you have to say on the matter
Mrs.C~ Me think you have great insight as to where me be goin. That were exactly what me wanted to hear.
P.S. Me never worries about me physical safty only me mental health.
"Memories is what you get from embracing life, regrets are born from running away from it"
Once I had embraced her, having to let go became worse than it would have if I hadn't. But then I would have regretted not embracing her.
But there's still a lot of running away I should overcome.
This summer i'm also going for a walk, too bad i'm not allowed to wander away from the group beacause of the polar bears.
But the landscape will impress me none the less.
thanx for posting Scary
(am still strolling through your older work :))
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